Our AOL is still messed up so no chance to get online and talk with my friends because I so need to. We(my sister and I) had invited a few other people to go to the movies with us but everyones seems to have dropped out on us, :-( My friends bug me sometimes, their Mom's all think my sister and I are like bad people and won't even let them come over to spend the night at our house! That's so dumb. And it's not like we've ever done anything bad at all, because we havn't. Their Mom's are just so overprotective and don't let their girls have a chance to just live life. And when they can get their own life I think they'll just rebel against their parents and get into trouble. So I don't see the point of making your children live in a shell.

Now my parents don't do that. I think they're too overprotective, but I handle it because most of the time I get my own way, so it dosen't matter. With my parents at work most of the time we can do whatever at home, scream at each other, eat whatever when we want to, and we've been known to redo each others rooms with paint, yes we did get in trouble for that. But really besides that it's a really free place. And I don't understand why parents put a money spending limit on their kids. I know I sound spoiled but if I want something, I get it. And my friends parents hardly let them loan money for a movie. My parents don't even give me loans, they give me the money, I get what I want and don't have to pay them back. Sometimes it feels like my sister and I are on a whole diffrent planet then our friends.

But our friendships are still pretty strong. We all love and support each other, we're always there for each other to call anytime. Like the time my brother fell down the steps and my parents wisked him off to the hospital and my sister and I were standing in the nice little pools of his blood he left behind. I was so scared and mad at my parents for leaving us here at like eleven at night. So I start cleaning up blood just so scared and crying so I called one of my best friends who I've known for like 9 years. She listened to my ranting, crying and cursing, then had her Mom come and get us at midnight to take us to their house. And since they live about 45 minutes away, well I was just really thankful. And there are tons of other times my friends have had my back like that. And I love them always for it. 

Not saying I havn't wanted to just try it, but never have done so. It's a big temptation, you just want to get drunk so maybe you can escape from how bad your life might seem right then. But it's not worth it, you could do something stupid and hurt or even kill yourself or others. There's a reason there's an age limit to drinking, to protect us. So please people don't drink when your too young and if you do please don't drink and drive.

I know we've heard it before but I just think it's so sad to see someone's life ended over something that you can stop.

But moving on to a happier subject, while I am sitting here at the library a totaly hottie walked in that my Mom is trying to get me together with but I'm too shy to even do anything or say anything! Oh, the many problems of the world, drinking and girls not having the courage to go up to a guy they like and say something.

I know God dosen't care about how good I am, as long as I do try my best but I still have the want to want to make everything perfect.

Okay, I'm sorry to cut this off but I have to go help little kiddos and I know this is a pretty dumb post since it's not finished but I'll post it anyways! And thanks to whoever left a note at the end of my last post, it was really sweet.

So let's begin with a quick intro with my amazingly deep thoughts about the activity for the day, blowing off rockets. I'm homeschooled so for a part of our homeschool group my class made rockets. Well, the boys made my rocket to be perfectly honest. It was too hard and boring and today we will go to our church to blow them off, which of corse I have no intrest in, I just want to see my friends. Okay, let's back up. As your reading this and you get to the part about me being homeschooled and then going to church, OMG what a loser. But it wasn't my choice to be homeschooled so you can't blame me and I've always gone to church so I just fell into it. Not saying that I am a strong Christian at all. In fact I'm a pretty lame excuse and God is only there for me when I'm in a good mood(sorry God). So please, don't assume things about me like that, thank you very much. Back to topic, so we'll go and blow the rockets up. Whoo hoo. Except I'm pretty sure mine won't go so high because the parts I did make will go all wrong I bet. Now anyone who's deeper then me could write someting really deep here about the diffrence or sameness about these rockets and my life, but I'm not that deep. But now that I think about it I guess there's a lot my life has in commen with a cardboard tube. Let's make a list;

1. My life is shakly built, like my rocket. I have issues, let's just say.

2. I am waiting to explode, like my rocket again. I really am tired of being the perfect little girl, but of corse being the chicken that I am I will do nothing about this.

3. I really want to fly high. And I bet my rocket does too. I want to be the best that I can be at everything, although I tend to sent myself up for goals that can't be done as no one is perfect. Including me(sob).

So there's my little list. And now I'm getting to like my rocket, it represents me. I really do want it to go really high and have a cardboard tube do all that I can't do, which if you look at it, it's very sad that I as a pretty capable human being can't do as much as a cardboard tube. Maybe I do need to jump in and do something wild...